Friday, March 20, 2009

Moods





SENTI


Somewhere something is burning. Its searing and it burns and there is smoke… Its choking breathlessness. Results are out...                                                                                                                                  

Its not about marks… I know it was never about em , and never shall it ever be… I know it cause I believe it.  It wont stoop so low as to blame Richa's of our college for my loss. It was never them. It was me.

Its just that I've lost currency.

I've lost my currency. And I feel pain for my loss. A currency that I have every right on. A currency of every hour spent sleepless and every cigarette smoked to concentrate bit more, to cover another chapter. A currency of hard work. Or was there no hard work… just a record of fecklessness, hubris and incompetence…. A life of profligate insanity...  Of hee -hee … haa haa… alas! My rewards mock me!

Its so hard to accept... you are ordinary. Why should it be that hard... When you are nothing but ordinary. Why does this chimera , this  surrealism… of being not the other guy in crowd. I AM ORDINARY. I AM HUMAN. I AM THE OTHER GUY IN CROWD. I AM CROWD.

 

 

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ANGRY


F*** you R*** gupta! teri to ! And burn in hell... you Ritesh! F*** DCE faculty! and DCE... F*** the system! F*** hostel! F*** me!


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HAPPY


Sahi hai jee! hawa mein ud rha tha ek sem mein 80 gaye... ab padhai karunga... lol

vaise bhi kaun sa marka le kar duniya se jaunga... khalee haath aaye the jee khalee haath jaana hai jee... marks to bas moh maaya hai jee...


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Ps. I should join military… shouldn’t i? where life is pride and death an honor… even for ordinary people like me...


Saturday, February 21, 2009

LOVE


they say love is sweet.

i disagree.

love is not sweet, it is not meant to be sweet. it can never be sweet. people who say such things have never felt love... even if they did, it was surely not the way i experienced it.

love is extreme. love is intense. and it burns hot or freezes cold.

ive felt love more than once. ive felt love when i hear a song repeatedly for hours. and ive felt love when i sit down for hours sit down in front of the computer looking  up things, doing things.  and its love when sometimes i  smoke in solitude for my own satisfaction and my own freedom. and was it not love when i stood in the balcony when it was freezing, looking ahead in darkness contemplating... what next?

and its love when there is  just commitment to do somethin and an effort to work hard for it.

And how can it not be sheer love when i try to define it and i cannot... 


Friday, February 20, 2009

i disappoint me.


(first things first... the title is utterly rubbish, its gramatically incorrect! - random reader of nigams blog if you are reading this then, am sorry)



I donno if its far to early to write this post but, it has been utter disappointment that my entry was not selected for technovision 09 (DCE techfest technical paper presentation contest) or TechXbit (IET tech fest). Its a disppointment not just cause it wasnt selected but for the fact that i really worked hard for it... nearly 5 days working all alone, late nights till 4-5 am and you know... missed out on quite a few things. Had put all that MBA prep on the backburner... And the hunger at 3 am in the morning at the hostel... F***! 
AND THE BASE LINE BEING THAT I CRAMMED AND SLOGGED WITH ALL THAT HELL LOADS OF BOOKS AND NET... sheer frustration...  And all that hardwork seem ki it has gone down the drain.

I DISAPPOINT MYSELF AGAIN!


Sunday, February 15, 2009

My entry for tatva

Tatva09- tech fest of polymer science branch at dce.
and here was my entry for the essay writing competition...
(It was undoubtedly nigam who inspired me to jump in the bandwagon of this competition--- thanx nigam)
And hey... if you are able to read it till its end, criticism of any brutal level would be most welcome. (Plz dont clutter the comments section with any praise)

Has technology abetted terrorism?

Guns don’t seem so offensive. Resting in the hands of the security officer at the nearest metro station we derive from it a sense of security. We feel protected from the next fanatic zealot who might be out to kill innocents. But isn’t it our naiveté, that se so choose to ignore that it’s this very gun that will take the like of a human. A human who might not realize the importance of life, which we proudly claim we do. And at the end of the day, what we are left with are the dead bodies. Bodies of both that security officer and that strayed youth. Both killed by the offshoot of a technology that some man invented, whatever reason he might have. Ingenious ways to terrorize with likes chemical, biological and nuclear weapons are being explored and tried every day.


Has technology abetted terrorism?

Unequivocally and unambiguously yes.

Let’s analyze a more fundamental question that lies in the heart of matters. What is terrorism? Is it just about another idiosyncratic zealot out with his Ak -47 India TV shows us?

 

If yes, then what do you call the war on Iraq? Was it legitimate considering the fact that it was waged on the premise of a confirmed report that sighted Iraq as possessing weapons of mass destruction? Iraq did not have weapons. A war was waged with weapons developed on premise of defence. A nation was bombed and conquered by force and coercion by the sheer power of technological superiority. A nation was plunged in to a civil war. And people, innocent people died. Is this not terrorism? Was it not the technology that enabled such terrorism?

It would be grossly myopic to limit the definition of terrorism to such small scope and timeline.

It’s not just US with present technology; the same were repeated time and again by USSR in Afghanistan, Britain in the colonized countries, and Spaniards in the Latin America.

Throughout ages technology has been used solely to aid dominance and dominance to rule and coerce is nothing but terrorism. And by all facts technology has been used to abet terrorism.


Forget Iraq. Nearly half of African continent is submerged in a civil war. A war, which has been waging since last 50 years. In countries like Sudan, Uganda, Chad, Congo and Somalia, It’s a world where Ak-47s elect governments, buy rations and provide shelter. Even in the nooks of civilization where advancement hasn’t seeped, technology to coerce and terrorize has found its way. Its technology and terror that have complemented each other.

 

Let’s look at another facet of terrorism and the technology. This facet rather than being overt is much potent in boardrooms and with people holding the strings to money. The financial terrorism. Since the start of our civilization we have leaped in to the age of global markets. Money controls how people act and it has become more fluid than ever. It can be transferred from one part of the world to another by just a click of a mouse. And herein malefactors have found ways too. From one off incidents of terrorizing in the name of siphoning off bank accounts to global pressure tactics by financially strong countries its all the same terror. Hawala money transfer is used to finance terrorists in far off lands. Countries like US and EU use strong arm tactics on other countries to force them in to suitable agreements with threats of economic sanctions. Seemingly innocuous they may be, but it’s just new technology and new way of terrorizing.

 

A closely related technology to finance which also is the heart beat of modern age is information technology and computers. Nothing was more ingenious than the way technology was misused to abet terrorism with computers and IT. With streaming media on internet that relayed latest bigotry of hardliner islamists and Osama’s from stone age Afghanistan to every other day beheadings that these murderers filmed of their victims it had it all, hasn’t IT and computers played a role here as well?

Latest electronics, like video cameras, thermal night vision imagers to integrated circuits used in time bombs, everything that could help terror has helped terror.

From the idiosyncratic zihadi brigade, to the democratically elected governments who has not used the technology to dominate over others? To terrorize others?

Guns, Grenades, Bombs, Nuclear weapons, financial buttons and Information technology.

We live in a world where these are guarantors of peace, negotiators of policies and messiahs of freedom to fanaticism. Whether they were developed for this very use or is it our dented psyche that made us use them to destroy each other is another debate altogether.

 But with the above arguments presented who can say technology has not abetted terrorism?


Friday, February 13, 2009

V day

ROSE


DEV-D.

Life aint that bad. Eventhough V day sucks! life aint bad for sure.
Cheers!

and wishing all the couples a very happy V day. (and all the singles a very happy daaru party!)