Thursday, June 10, 2010

Immortality




College has come to an end. From last year to last month, from last month to last week, from last week to last day... The ending of the end has ended.

Gosh! sometimes it feels its all over. Everything. If not everything then, at least everything that i called college. But most of the times i don't even want to think on those lines. Endings and partings and sadness and happiness or whatever. Mind has its mysterious ways, now i know.

And more than often i think how this could be the new beginning. A new life. A life where i have the freedom and opportunities. Opportunities to explore things and do things the ways i wanted and in the ways i dared not. New friends and new people. New things to learn and new things to do. Sometimes this feeling of being in the newness of things is so overwhelming i often have this feeling to leave everything and everyone so so back (with only one exception)....

The journey to "Tinsukia", Assam ... The long journey. The loneliness and sometimes abominable often amenable lull... All coming back to life.
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With placement in a mediocre company, something the least DCE has on offer, theres often a heaviness at heart. Feels bad a lot of times. I dunno what to name this feeling. Jealousy or anger or injustice, i don't know. Yet a lot of times, it does seem that it has happened for something good. For something good to follow. At least i can, many a times feel that lightness of being the beginner, an underachiever again. Afraid a little. But with a curiosity to try out things. And not much worries of loosing out on anything.
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College was immortality... Seems am back... Living. :)