Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sheer beauty


Am in love with guns...

I love em... From Dragunov SVD to mosin-nagat and from M16-Ak47 to classic springfeild... i love em all... given a chance i will like to hold it, fire it and keep it with me. i love guns...

The way it represents sheer power, a power to strike with deadly force...

 I know it kills... and human life is precios... but what does not kill?

Am not eligible for Air force. My resolve to join any other service in military is shaky... may be ill do an MBA than landing up somewhere where i cant fly... But surely one good reason that i wanted to join military (army now) is to fire a firearm... hold it... touch it... feel it... experience the recoil and look through the aiming sight... GAWD i love guns! they are beutiful than any girl... any natural scenary... anything ever made...


(The pic at the start is of one of my favourites... the sturmgrewehr 44 (looks much like an AK 47))

 

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

quantity and quality

its really surprising to discover that even quantity is quality...

like if you owerwhelme something with excessive firepower rather than havin a fair accuracy (Ak47 Vs M16)...
or 
you flood the markets with something thats cheap and easy to produce, than having a higly effective yet complicated design, hard to manufacture (Surf excel Vs Nirma).... its the quality of quantity ( which is the sheer quantity of qunatity ) that has supremacy over quality's quality alone. 

thats where the kiss principle derives from...

THE KISS PRINCIPLE

K- Keep
I - It
S - Simple
S- Stupid!


;)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

such a lonely world



Just finished "Inheritance of loss" and it was good. No doubt it was well written. An open ending and yet i end up appreciting the elan; thats something. I guess finally am coming to terms with an open endings. As i had read in one of the RC passages at the Career launcher's english class... open endings capture the reality of life... the possibilties of the story ending in any form... any end. Happy. Sad. Ambivalent. Am beginning to understand.

Inheritance of loss is a story which had the capacity to connect. And it spoke of a reality that each one of us tries to "ignore". Of destitution, of helplessness... We, living a life that is by all material means saturated overlook miseries. 

one of the lines that really moved me said
... Its hard to accept oneself as is. Of our shortcomings and fragility. It needs a facade of persuasion, not for other but for our veryown self. Everyone does it....
This kinda jolted my guts inside. Were my beleifs my facade? or am i just running from my deficiancies?

I Could identify mysef with gyan. Was i just blaming my incompetence to unfathomed causes and treading a path i myself dont know where it lead....

god knows...

Friday, May 22, 2009

The one when the condom scene happened.



I guess its been a while since that happened and the time is right to put this on blog...
Surely this one made me realize that sometimes life is far crazy than they can ever depict in soaps and movies...

so here it goes...
Circa, 2nd year at college. Then, i was this guy who had never dated a girl.. the mysteries of the fairer gender were all elusive (its the same case today as well).

So the incident goes.. There is this old school friend that i had met in delhi after long. ( She all bubbly and vivacious gal and me the not so bubbly and not so vivacious guy). We had bumped in  quite a few times earlier as well. Here and there, nothin much to write home about. And then one day outta blues she rings me, askin if am free for movie as she has a day off at her place... i agreed. (Cum on! bandi asking out... itna to banta hai! :P)

And at the same time we have our annual college fest goin on.
Our main sponsers : NAACO (n - national a- aids a-pta ni  c- control o- organization  i guess). 
And what these guys (our sponsors) had done was,  to promote awareness and some other reason ( :P) placed this small box of condoms at the college canteen. In broad daylight the place where that condom carton was kept is completely deserted. Not a soul. But boyz will be boyz. By the evening when i was back at hostel seems every other guy had grabbed at least a few condoms, for god knows what reasons ( i can assure you that 99% of the guys had no prospects- me included). Voila! my roomie gifts me one as well. lol. All happy that i din miss out I PUT THAT GOD FORSAKEN CONDOM THING IN POCKET AND JUST FORGET.

The next thing that i remember is that we are rushing in for the movie. Got the tickets and proceed for the security check...

Security guard: "Sir! pocket mein kya hai? sir chocolates chewing gum allowed nahi hai!"

Me : "arre kuch nahi hai bhaiya! aise hi kuch wrapper hoga..."

Security guard: "Nahi sir! Nikaliye to sahi! dekhna padega"


NIRODH!


AWW! now that was embarrassing! 

I still remember the  silly smile that security guard gave me ( stopping short of the advice on abstinence)... and the other movie goers! GAWD!!!! 
I ran to catch up with my movie mate. 

Meanwhile  i donno if "she" had seen actually what had transpired... i still donno but she had this look of surprise on her face. God knows what she thought of me. (Jerk! what does he think of himself?... i surely made a big fool of myself and vowed NEVER TO ROAM WITH A CONDOM IN THE POCKET.... lol) 
The movie was a bore btw.. the chaat that we had after the moie was great!...

PS. And hey condom is good! abstinence is better. Adios!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Thursday, May 7, 2009

100

hey this ones my 100th!

pleasent surprise... given that its nearing 3 am and am desperate for anything good...

End sems (VIth sem) have blown the air outta me... am gasping to breath in this jam packed and  suffocating preparation. In spite of all the lessons that ive learnt in last 5 sems, i find myself in the same quagmire again.... havent read nything and studying at th 11th hpour is making no difference... GoD! somebody please postpone the exams by a week more...

btw i exercised my electoral franchise yesterday, for the first time. The indelible ink mark is really cool btw... lol...

and and... the birthday last week was good. Delicious dinner at home. Parents. Peace == Ammazing!
and the "other celebration" which followed was good as well. But for the burning a hole in my pocket thing, everything else was nice in it... lol :)

so... ill be off for the next 15-20 days... (whom am i telling this??? lol hardly anyone reads my blog...)
Nyways tada!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

to me...



Birthday kyooon aata hai yaar!... harr baar... baar baar... lagatar...???

fir se pitunga... treat bhi deni hogi... aur pata ni... kya kya...


Happy birthday to me!