Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year

I don't feel like blogging these days. Life's good, not great. My last holidays in college are going just usual. Completely vella all the time and most of the time boring. In college when companies are coming, revising college stuff. When home most of the time am online, and that too only to find myself looking through specifications of Missiles and rifles and aircraft ( as though am going to experience any of it :( in near future...).

Life is dull but at least am aware of the fact that there isn't much tension now (compared to a life that i would be having just after 6 months from now). Got placed in IBM. Yet feeling nothing different whatsoever. Infact the very reaction to the news when they put up that notice on the training and placement department was like... "ok! yeah! finally ek job mili". Hope of getting a better job is diminishing by the day. Yet am trying to linger on. Hope.

"Hope is a quintessential human delusion, perhaps the source of mans greatest weakness and his greatest strength" - The Architect (Matrix)

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I dunno what to write next... The sounds of crackers bursting and diwali rockets zooming here and there outside my window tell me that the clock has crossed the 12 mark and 2010 has sneaked in just a few minutes ago.

Watched two movies day before yesterday. Vicky Christina Barcelona & Patriot games. The first one was nice. In fact it was very nice (sply when you got both penelope cruz & scarlet johansson to gether). The latter was trash. Typical run of the mill Hollywood affair with absolutely no frills.

What else to write... yaar it seems am again getting back to dairy writing on the blog... and thats something i hate...

Happy New Year to all!

adios.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

heartburn



its been long time... yet sometimes i reminisce of things i... i longed for and now i don't.... they seem far trivial...

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i often wonder bout how relationships work and why *sometimes* they don't. Why sometimes two are attracted and why sometimes one doesn feel the same. Why does one long for company? and why does the heart *burn* sometimes? why people are attracted towards falling in love and yet not notice how complicated it is.. and and how and why does loneliness suck a lot of times?

Is it all just a metamorphosis of all thats physical...carnal...hormonal?
What is love? and why does heart *burn*?

i luv my loneliness. it aint bad i can tell you... i luv sitting in my room.. disconnected.. Games novels.. movies.. net... a quiet dinner.. and yet heart *burns*!
i luv company. its certainly better in many ways. sharing dinner... snacks... talks... tasks... Still heart *burns*...

what is it that i long for?
Is it something thats achievable through love.. but is something beyond love..
Am i talking sense or its just nonsense?

Why does heart *burn*?


P.S. sometimes its just questions. no answers.

P.P.S i guess am having a lot of trans fats in my diet... could be a cause of heart burns :P