its 2 am and the body is sleepless and the spirit restless... i can fell a prickle thats runnin amok in n out...
i had always wondered as to what the feeling would be when am gonna read up that last page of Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)... an achievement, somethin of a premise that i could gloat bout to my frnds... somethin i can boast on my blog... but flipping thourgh its last pages tonight.... the discovery is sheer pain... every inch of body burning... and and its solitude and all pathos...
The philosophy of objectivism of ayn rand wills surity over things. People know what they want out of their lives... and i dont. i desire. the very morality of ones existence is his happiness... nothing else. But if one doesn know what he seeks, how should happiness ensue....
HOW CAN I EVER PURSUE HAPPINESS?
its been a week, and yet i fail to find a premise that validates me spendin my fathers hard earned money for the sake of my MBA preparation. i donno why i would be doin an MBA as i never knew as to why i was doing engineering.
Its been over a week now and am still lookin around finding reasons as to MBA being a good choice over something as vague as army. Ive been thinkin of a long term goal that i seek to achieve or the very desire to see myself as somethin years from now... and all i can see myself doin is adjustin to whatever i would be doin then.... adjusting... compromising... just as i had compromised to be here at DCE... i never made a choice...
the problem is choice.
you make a choice and you open a door.
the problem is choice.
can there be a compromise when the very desire to do achieve things is poisoned... adultrated... or may be abscent...
as i weigh my desires... the only possible vocation that i think suits me is to join Airforce or as a backdrop Army. but as i note the last sentense that i wrote... its just a desire. A will has no scope for confusion... weaks desire... strong will.
its not gonna be same tmrw. the CL class, it has to be different...
something has to change....
it will...
2 comments:
As a matter of fact...things changed...
they did....for you ...for me...when we had sunshine warming our lives the moment..she stepped in. :)
haaeeeyyy :P
pch! ab mai kya kahun...
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